BIG update coming later - but for now, new hair pics!

As you can see - pale blonde has become warm browny dark blondy sort of colour!!

New start = new hair.

New colour, new cut (about 5" off at least, much more at the layers), new job, new wardrobe, new car.

So you see, lots to update, so watch this space!

Hugs to all, Blondie xx

PS - please excuse pic quality - taken from my webcam, after I'd just woken up from an hours nap on the sofa - wiping off my makeup and squashing my hair!!

5.30am, still wide awake, going nuts

Got a thumper of a headache, but every time I lay down & try to sleep I just seem to go this weird, disorientating version of 'hyper', and have to sit up. If I describe it as "seasickess on steroids" it probably comes somewhere close.

No wonder I'm so bleeding exhausted all the time. This isn't normal right?! And of course no matter what time I finally fall asleep I'll be wide awake at 9/9.30, so another night of hardly any sleep.

This. Is. So. Stupid.

:(

Finally spoke to the job guy

And whilst I won't count my chickens yet, was all good:

- Still "very much interested" and wants to move it on

- Those in the company HQ in Germany are also interested - whilst the final decision is his, and based on who he's comfortable with, they do obviously have an interest

- The consultant woman came in to see him, and she was very impressed by both my CV and what he said about me from our interview, so doesn't think I need to meet with her. Very cool! :)

- Still needs to iron out a few final details with German HQ, mainly about the package on offer, and wants to see me again to discuss in more detail - because tradeshow season in our industry has just started and he's so under-staffed the first free appt he has is 26th Sept, so we've pencilled in for that date, but he says if any time frees up in the meantime he'll call and try to bring it forward.

So... still in limbo for another 3 weeks, but do feel slightly better :)

General update

Not posted much the last few days as not much to report. I've had no great insights, nothing has been particularly bad or particularly good or particularly interesting, and I've not wanted to scream too many times...

Most importantly, my nan has had her major op and come through not only relatively unscathed, but also seems much the better for it already - which has amazed everyone, doctors included! She's had all her pain relief drips & epidurals out now (she had the op Wednesday morning), and is now on a mix of Codeine and Paracetemols. She had her catheta out yesterday, and has started walking a few steps with the aid of 2 nurses. She's a bit dippy because of the meds, but at least she knows it and can laugh at herself too! :)

Jamie's new car arrives on Monday - perfect timing since today, when he was heading back down from helping his sister move into her new house in Scarborough, his stupid car switched into the ridiculous 'limp-home' mode again - just because it got wet! Ridiculous...

My car was in the production plan to be built Friday, so we'll call in a few days to check it was. Hope so, as doing my head in not having a car! (dad has my old one til we have to hand it in as part exchange for the new one, as since he was made redundant he had to give his car back, and he uses it more than I would if I had it, since I'm so scared of the bloody thing)


Installed some new anti-virus software, etc, which has COMPLETELY screwed up my pc - so my advice, along with that of hundreds of others on the internet (wish I'd looked first) is STAY AWAY FROM NORTON INTERNET SECURITY & SYSTEMWORKS, particularly the latter!!

Norton products tend to be ok for the first year, but if you upgrade or buy a new one, it causes all sorts of problems, and that's what I've done. I won't bore you with the technicalities of what's gone wrong, but very bad. And very, very, ve-r-r-r-r-r-y-y-y-y-y-y s-l-l-l-o-o-o-o-w-w-w...


Have a rare weekend day with Jamie tomorrow as he's not out shooting his airguns, which will be lovely. Except he's getting a cold bless him, so he might not feel so great. :(


That's all folks!

I might be weaker now, but I'm stronger too

Me and Jamie were having a trip down memory lane last night in bed, or rather I was, and he was listening.

I was remembering back to a time where I attacked everything head on - where nothing ever scared me, I was hardly ever ill, and when I was I just ignored it where possible, and just 'got better as fast as possible' where not. I went through some pretty heavy stuff, both emotionally & physically, and I never let it alter my stride.

It all sounds nuts looking back, and it's not something I particularly want to share online [one to save for the novel maybe ;)], but, for example, 1 day after a major medical incidence I was boarding a plane to Germany at 8am heading for an intense & draining week of work at our European HQ, just ignoring the pain I was in and what I'd just been through. Looking back I'm amazed at how strong I was - I couldn't imagine doing it now.

But also, when talking it through last night, I realised I was also terribly weak at that time - I thought what I was doing was normal, and that what my boyfriend was putting me through, how he was treating me & how he was reacting to the situation was all ok, when in reality it was shocking. It makes Jamie so angry, and me so confused - I felt strong because I just got on with it, but I was weak - whilst it wasn't that I knew it was all wrong & didn't do anything to stop it, it was because I didn't even see how wrong it was.

Now, today, is different. I wouldn't have the strength to deal with things so stoically as I used to, yet I wouldn't be so weak as to think that I had to.

Maybe some good has come of all the crap after all... ??

He hasn't called yet...

Had a depressed couple of days because of it. Stomach, of course, being obligingly rubbish - nasty d and horrible pain for the last 2 days. Oh, and no sleep obviously...

He promised he'd call by the close of play Friday, and he hasn't. I feel like a teenager waiting by the phone after a great first date that ends with "I'll call you". And of course Monday is a bank holiday, and I also think he said he was on holiday the rest week.

Here was me believing, just for a minute, that something might just go right, and be 'easy'.

Will I ever learn??

The interview went well

I don't want to jinx it with sharing the details too much, so all I'll say is:

1) I got there. Ok it was 15/20 minutes late (but I let him know, and why), but got there in one piece.

2) The guy I would be working for is great (the Managing Director), the existing team is great, and the company has a great culture, and there'd be great potential to make a name for myself and to grow with the business.

3) The role would be ideal, as would the MD's stance on training, etc, and I'd both be able to utilise existing skills & relationships as well as gain lots of new ones.

4) He's very interested, described a good package, and SEEMED very enthusiastic to move forward on it. He's having a personal development consultant in to identify his strengths and weaknesses, and asked me to come in to meet her too - thought I'd be suspicious but I surprised him as it sounds both interesting & even fun to me, so he said I'd hear from him by the end of the week as to when that would be.

So keep those fingers crossed people! :)